Prayer for Mama

Good things have happened today but the only thing on my mind is my grandmother.
I love her so much. Dad told me that they won’t preform surgery on her. She has probably aspirated and is having trouble breathing as well as her stomach problems, too.
I’m having a hard time not being in the U.S.
After Skyping with Dad to find out the news, Jess came in and let me cry as I hugged her. Leyla held my hand. I sobbed. I’m a crier. An ugly one, too...snot, creepy noises, hyperventilating. Just back away.
But they didn’t. They held me and let me feel all that I was feeling.
I feel for my family. I want to be with them. I feel like I’m not a part of them with this going on and me here. She deserves for her family to gather around and love on her, but I cannot come home. I must accept this. Dad always tells me, the baby, that I need to "be brave." I will be.
Tomorrow is our ISA trip to Verona. As of now, I am still planning to go and hope to talk to Mama on the phone tomorrow while I’m there.
Please continue to pray for my family and especially for dear Mama. She is in a lot of pain and is very uncomfortable. She is ready to go, and praise the Lord, she is a Christian. Selfishly I still want her here.
Please pray for her comfort and for the Lord's will in this situation. I don't know what to ask for, but I do know that God is sovereign, and His will is perfect.